Hey Lovelies!
this isn’t a proper post and I need to go to school I need like 5 mins but I’d just like to say…
OMGGGGG were ok 50 followers aaaaggghhh!
Im not joking this is actually incredible!!!!
i love you all so much ❤️
Thank you for everything:)
Autumn xxxx
Hi Lovelies!
The other day I was hiding behind a car because me and my best friend, A, who I spoke about in my post 29/12/16, were having a Nerf Gun war (As you do!) and I had a sudden flash back to a fabulously embarrassing moment of my life which, looking back at it is super funny so therefore I though I’d share it with you guys!
There was this boy who I went out with for like a week because I felt sorry for him but because it was me I still felt so socially awkward around him, even though we weren’t in a proper relationship or anything. One day I was casually walking bad home from school looking like an idiot as I had been crying a lot that day because of friendship issues and I generally had a rubbish day so I honestly couldn’t care what I looked like (I probably had running mascara and super messy hair!) and yeah, I was just trudging home when I saw that very same boy, lets call him L walking towards me. Me, being me really socially awkward self, stood routed to the spot staring right at him and as my mind began to work again my one thought was that I needed to get out this situation and so my instant reaction was: RUN!!! So that is exactly what I did. I ran back the way I came and down a side road before hiding behind a car. After standing behind this poor persons car for what seemed like hours and was actually seconds I cautiously peered over the edge of the car caught eyes with a boy. The very same boy who I’d just stared at for like two minuets before running away from!!!!! And then I realized that the car I was standing behind had really see through windows and so he most probably saw me hiding behind it in the first place!
AAAGGGHHHH!!!!!
That story is making me cringe just writing it!
Even when I walk back home from school now I still walk really cautiously around that corner, just in case!
Have any of you guys had any super embarrassing stories? Write them in the comments if you dare!!!!
Autumn xx
Hi Lovelies!
yay! As you’ve probably noticed I have changed my blog layout and, I don’t know about you, but I love it!
For today’s post I’m going to be showing you 5 amazing quotes which have recently inspired me to try and live life a bit more and stay happy 🙂
Quotes are literally my life, I actually love them so much!!
I hope you liked these quotes and see you next time (whenever that may be?!)
Autumn xx
Hello Lovelies!
Aaaaaagggghhhhhhh!
I don’t actually know what I’d do without you, you’re all so amazingly kind and supportive and I’m now on 38 fullowers… In less than a month!!.Just woah! I love you guys! xx
I wanted to do this haul for a while because I had taken the pics of everything and then all that drama stuff got in the way of my posts because I was pretty scared to go onto the internet, just in case anyone had commented anything horrible, luckily on my blog I only got like 2 hate messages from S but, anyway.
Here’s my haul:
Ok!
That’s it for this post and I’m looking for somewhere to take my pics instead of just with the blurred fairy lights so in my next haul there may be a different background.
Bye!
Autumn xx
Hey Lovelies!
So I’d just like to tell you this:
You remember all that drama and stuff that happened? (if not read Help!!) so basically… It got worse. There was a girl who was one of the girls who hated me who kinda knew about my blog. I trusted her. I thought that even though she hated me should keep my blog a secret, I would have done that if she had an anonymous blog but I guess she thought differently. She told the whole of my form about my blog. My anonymous, private, personal blog. So now the whole form knows about it, unfortunately so therefore for a while I won’t be that active on this blog and the posts I do make will be simple little things like morning routines or hauls or something not personal or deep because I know whats gonna happen. The whole form will read them and judge me. More than they have already.
Before I end this post I’d just like to say a massive thank you to my new friends who I already thoroughly trust and have been so so so sooooooo supportive (even if it means hiding in the stinky loos all lunch!!) So thank you soooooooooooo much it means the world to me and also thank you soooooooooo much to all you guys who have been active on my blog and commented some amazing tips for this friendship issue xxxxx
Autumn xxxxx
Hey Lovelies!
So for this post I thought I’d share with you a short story I’ve written…
so instead of doing a long intro I’d just like to say, enjoy!
I knew something was up. Mum hadn’t spoken to Cathy, my best friend, for at least two weeks and Cathy hadn’t seen her for ages. Mum loved Cathy, from the day that I met her, my mum decided that she was part of the family, which was good for Cathy because she had parent problems, but that’s a different story. Thinking back now I’m pretty sure Mum loved my best friend more than she every loved me, although, I wasn’t the one who moved to Australia without her.
“…and Morgan, as usual, was being so, so, so annoying.”
Where was mum? Was she ok? I’d completely zoned out to what Cathy was ranting on about after no news on how Mum was.
“Kat! Are you even listening to a word I’m saying? It’s important! You remember how horrible Morgan is, don’t you?”
“Sorry the connections bad, after all you do live at the other side of the world. Anyway I have to go now, bye” I lied, not honestly caring about Morgan and her ‘gang’. I would have told Cathy about how I feel about Mum but it just didn’t feel like it was the right moment. Actually, recently it never did. After finishing chatting to Cathy I turned to my diary, yes, it sounds childish but it really helps me organise my thoughts:
No news on Mum. I’m getting seriously worried now, after all it’s been two and a half weeks. What if she’s ill…? No. Dad would have told me. What is she has gone off and got married to someone else? She promised she wouldn’t but I have feeling she wouldn’t mind breaking that promise…
All my thoughts were swirling round my head each one racing to become the most important, each one forcing me to worry about it, each one wanting to be centre of my attention. I just couldn’t deal with it any more. I get that my only main problem was Mum but my mind was making me worry about the little things; there was a Spanish test tomorrow, I haven’t done my Maths homework, I don’t even have a proper best friend; like one that lives in the same country as me, who I can see every day and tell all my secrets to.
“Katie dinners ready!” Dad called up the stairs. Shaken out of my thoughts, I trudged down for dinner. It didn’t help that recently our food had been eaten in utter silence, for some reason. Silence gave me more time to think about everything that was going on and by the time I was lying in bed all my feelings were spinning around and around my head like a hurricane; forcing me to see the bad in everything. It danced and jumped creating havoc, picking up all the minor details of my life and churning them around, turning them into a massive deal. I was trapped inside my own life with no one to talk to, no one to tell my problems to, and no one who understands what my life is like. No one at all.
Next morning, unsurprisingly, I was tired although my head felt unnaturally empty as if a weight had been gently lifted of my shoulders and my worries gradually floated away. Squinting through the beaming winter sunrise I realised that, maybe, last night I was simply overreacting, I mean tones of kids have life a lot worse off than me. It was all okay. I would be fine. The sun was stunning that morning so, camera in hand, I went for a stroll to shake off any remaining anxiety. The rest of my day was a blur of unexpected joy as if last night had not existed, as if my worries had just been a bad dream. The relief I felt was unreal the only thoughts swimming around my mind all day was It will all be okay. You know in films after a giant fight or a fire or something everything seems all calm and quiet, well, that day felt just like that. I spent the majority of it inside my bedroom or outside taking photographs, photography was my escape. I love how each and every photo tells a different story and you can really express your feelings through photography, for example today I managed to take lovely photographs of the sky and some pictures which were full of colour and brightness because that was my mood whereas the other day the majority of my photos were quite dark and made you really think instead of jumping to a conclusion that my life was happy like today’s. The only thing that made me feel slightly uneasy was that Cathy had told me that Mum hadn’t bothered to communicate with Cathy at all. Again. Considering to tell Dad my worries, I went down stairs towards the sitting room where Dad would most probably be only to find Dad on the phone. To Mum. They hadn’t spoken in forever.
I cannot properly remember what happened next although I seem to recall falling- as if I was plummeting down a ginormous hole with no end. Surrounding me was pitch black walls and below me was just simply darkness. Just before this happened I felt my throat slowly tighten like a knot inside my stomach or a giant clenched fist and I was struggling to breathe. The breaths I did take were more or less gasps as I attempted to swallow down as much oxygen as possible. All my surrounding felt as if they were going to fall in on me and the photos on the walls were staring, glaring down at me with disgust and all I could hear was a dominating, swooshing noise.
‘Katie, Kat! Few you’re okay; I was starting to get worried.” Dad chuckled handing me a refreshing glass of cool water. Dad was silent for a while, wrapped up in his own thoughts, absentmindedly stroking my hair so I thought I may as well reflect on what happened to me. One minute I was happily bounding down the stairs and the next I was struggling to breathe, collapsing on the floor. What was wrong with me? Oh yes, and Dad, Dad was talking to Mum, why? The though made me shiver and my throat tighten again so I shook of the concept and suddenly realised Dad was talking to me again.
“… and so, darling, Mum was wandering if you wouldn’t mind flying back to see her. By yourself”
“Wait, why?” I asked, overwhelmed with confusion and panic.
“Because your mum is seriously ill, didn’t you listen?” Asked Dad seeming surprising calm and annoyed, rather than worried or upset for my mum.
I couldn’t reply because I’d started to feel dizzy again, so Dad just let me lie there and think. After a while he decided to leave me to it but I didn’t really notice because my mind was racing with anxiety. I had to go didn’t I, after all Mum was seriously ill? Did Dad say fly by myself? I had to fly all the way to England by myself? Is Mum okay? Will she survive?
Okay Kat breath. In… Out… In… Out…
Should I go? Should I stay? This was the best way to approach this problem according to the internet but so far it’s brought me nothing but stress. Okay, at the time I may have felt a little calmer but afterwards I would go back to being my normal, now panicky self.
One week later…
“Katie, sorry but your mum is getting worse, you’ll have to decide what you’re going to do I’m afraid, love.”
But what exactly should I do? If I stay Mum may die and I won’t of been able to say goodbye but if I go, well, recently I’ve been having these panic attacks about nothing, what if I have one on the plane with no one there to look after me? No, I shouldn’t let anxiety take over my life.
“I’m going.”
That was my story and please, do, leave comments on what you think about it.
I feel like I can relate to “Katie” in lots of ways and when I wrote about her I accidentally made her very similar to me!
Also I’d just like to say a huge thank you for 100 likes on Photo Dreams and 23 followers!!! I honestly never thought I’d get that far!
One final thing: I’ve decided that all the pictures on this blog should be my own so… yeah!
Thank you for reading,
Autumn xx
Hey lovelies!
Happy new years eve!!!
For this post I’m gonna just have a shot chat with you about new year and the fact it’s almost officially 2017!!!!!
I’m really exited and it you read my 2016 post you’ll understand that this year I have had a couple (under reacting!) of problems with friendships and everything 🙂 But I also said that if we just skipped 2016 I wouldn’t be here chatting to random strangers who I have only known for about a week about all my life problems and personal issues! Lol!!! I am seriously happy I’ve started this blog though and without 2016 I actually wouldn’t be here now. I also realized that I absolutely LOVE photography and I would consider it to be my career when I’m older. Photography and a few best friends and, now, this blog have got me through 2016 and on the way I’ve found out who I truly am so therefore I am actually grateful that 2016 did exist.
Now lets talk about 2017…
I can’t wait to make use of all the things I’ve learnt in 2016 and prove to everyone what I am capable of… I’m not just another random girl. I want to be know for something like photography so people would just be like ohhhh I know who you mean! That girl who is a great photographer. Even if they don’t know my name I’d be happy with the title: Great Photographer. I’ve also set some targets that i’d like to achieve. I though instead of doing a load of little ones I’d do a couple of more important ones which I’m more likely to achieve so here they are:
Those are my 4 things I’m going to hopefully achieve this year and I’ll sure keep you updated on how it’s going! I would also like to continue with my hobbies eg. blogging and photography and never give up! I’d also like to try and work harder at school and on homework (wish me luck!!)
This is all for that post, I hope you enjoyed my little chat and I’m going to go and enjoy new years eve!
Bye,
Autumn xx
Hello Lovelies!
I’d like to start off by saying a MASSIVE thank you for everyone who has been kind enough to comment lovely things on all my posts and I also I hope you all have fun tonight. Also be expecting a new years resolution post today or tomorrow so look out for that!
Ok so on with today’s post because I’m looking forward to it!!
Over the past couple of days I’ve been collecting reasons why everyone loves photography from my Instagram and on my blog for this post and it’s literally gonna be a load of everyone’s reasons why they love photography kind of merged together and I’m excited to start. I’ll also link all their Instagrams and blogs so you should go check them out.
I love photography because it’s a beautiful way of capturing moments and keeping them forever. I love how you get to freeze a moment in life.You can loose yourself in a photo and all my negative feelings just drift away when I have my camera in hand, it’s just me and my camera, escaping the world for a while. It’s like I’m somewhere else, free to take picture of whatever I want. No one can tell you what to do or who to be, express your creativity and taking photos helps you explain yourself when words fail. I want to be able to express the beauty I feel and see in nature and photography helps me to do that. I can capture the essence of something truly beautiful that tells a story which I can remember forever. Every time I look back at that photo, I remember again. As well as expressing the beauty I feel and see I can express the emotions going through my brain and I can clear my mind. I’m not some professional photographer but photography makes me happy, so does seeing them printed out looking all professional I think wow I took this and not being professional doesn’t stop me having fun! I want to be able to share my photos with the world to make people feel differently about things and understand my emotions or the point I’m trying to get across.
Photography is my passion.
Photography is my escape.
photography is my life.
and that’s why I love photography.
Yayyy!!!! I did it!!!
That’s a mixture of 10 different peoples views on photography and now you should go follow their Instagrams:
https://www.instagram.com/ms.photooo/?hl=en
https://www.instagram.com/ll.fotografie.ll/?hl=en
https://www.instagram.com/a.a.photography_x/?hl=en
https://www.instagram.com/ilyevie/?hl=en
https://www.instagram.com/beyou.photography/?hl=en
https://www.instagram.com/naturallysarahblog/?hl=en
https://aqsarahimblog.wordpress.com/
https://www.instagram.com/_itsnira/?hl=en
https://itsnira7.wordpress.com/
https://www.instagram.com/lexiebakephotography/?hl=en
https://www.instagram.com/pmrphotography_/
Happy new year!
Autumn xx
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